Random Ramblings

so 9/6 has come and gone..& i still dun have durian abs..

yet..

ok maybe i didnt exactly had them before but i definitely was a bit 'leaner and meaner' at some point in my life..yea yea..it could be age is catching up and metabolism is slowing down..and i need to work out just tat bit more, to see tat bit more results..but of cos it could also be i'm also lacking in tat bit of discipline..watever working out i'm doing is simply no match for all the pigging out i'm having..

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Still on working out..i must say i was quite impressed with someone's stamina..someone who did no/limited training could clock 10km in under 1 hour..and me, despite trying my darn best to build up my stamina..but still could not catch up with someone who had ran 7km..can u just see my ego being deflated..

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A few days ago, i received a compliment on how 'bilingual' i seem to be..and i happily accepted it, secretly 'arm-chio'..until someone suddenly, randomly, threw me a challenge of reading a chinese paragraph(in science centre no less, cant get anymore random than this)..while i don't think i 'failed' the test, i certainly wasn't as fluent as i was back in my school days..in fact, it was bad enough for tat someone to comment that my reading was 'one piece one piece'..(once again, there goes my ego..piew..)

It's not like i can't speak mandarin..in fact, i'm pretty confident i'm in the above-average half of the population in terms of conversational mandarin..just didn't expect my reading to be so 'off the mark'..my excuse? i speak minimal mandarin now..which is quite true..

If i'm out of office for work, i mostly speak english(or dun speak at all, given the non-verbal nature of some of my students)..and if i'm in my office, well..i dun exactly have colleagues to 'chit chat' with..(which, in my opinion, is when most people speak mandarin)..so when i do 'chit chat', it's mostly via msn..and of cos that'd mainly be in english(long gone are the days when i type faster in chinese than english)

So i guess it leaves me with my social interactions..I've said this before, and i wanna say this again..i'm not a kantang..never was, never gonna be one(in fact, i was one of those who was rather outraged by the recent 'miscommunication' about lowered weightage for MTL) I dun make a conscious attempt to 'purposely' speak english or mandarin, though i'm aware that i tend to speak more english with certain people and more mandarin to others..

Well, i guess..by my own warped definition of being bilingual, i AM indeed bilingual..